life's like that..

2012-02-15T20:25:00.001+08:00

Got a feeling that I will fail badly for both test tml. I need to buck up. But I need my sleep badly )): dilemma max :/

On a brighter note, I have the weekends free for me, myself and I ((: before that, I still have to go through CSE case study test. TSK. Thinking about all these tests makes me wanna commit suicide~ no time to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been spending time with my besties, and everytime we part ways, I immediately miss them )): and I cnt wait for A lvls to end so I can party with them w/o any worries ((((((: if only I can fast forward time to the last day of A lvls~~~

Continue dreaming, jean.

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2012-02-13T16:32:00.001+08:00

Wed: econs quiz

Thurs: maths test plus gp essay test

Fri: chem quiz plus cse case study test.

How screwed am i? Jus take a look at all the tests I have within a week. SIGH. I WANT MY LIFE BACK )):

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JC 2 LIKE FINALLY (((:

2012-02-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

What a hectic term, jc2 life is really tough. So far so good, been getting decent grades for tests (: but i'm still scared for common test :/ its less than a month to common test. Very scared that I will under perform. I feel that I have become more complacent aft my promos. What if I cnt cope with my studies, and end up failing mid years??

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GRACE CRAZE (:

2011-10-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! promos finally over!! feel as if a load taken off my shoulders (: i tried my best this time round, so even if i didnt make it to jc2, i won't feel guilty or regretful (:

now its time to spam some Hawaii Five O!!! jus short of a few episodes, and i officially finish season one. watched the first few episodes yesterday, and i was like WOW!!! the dvd is always inside my tv drawer, and i didnt know why i hadn't take it out to watch :/

and now, i'm obsessed with GRACE PARK!!! i know it sounds abit wrong, but she is damn AWESOME in this show!!!! (: her character, kono, is damn pretty and well, in short, i jus wanna be like her in the future (:

and can u believe it? she's 37 this year o.o i thought she was only 20++ when i first saw her, and she is TALL (: i bet her kids will look as awesome as her (if she decides to have one) and ya, she's married(: she also acted in Battlestar Galatica, The Border, The Cleaner. I'm so gonna download all the show she acted in before, and spend my holidays watching them (; but i cnt seem to find The Cleaner cos its cancelled and only available in DVD :( means i need to save up for it :( and since she acted in both seasons, i nid to save up about $100++? not to forget, The Border is oso only available on DVD (i think, since i cnt find it on funshion) , and she acted in 2 seasons, so its another $100++ gone T.T .Bear with me, cos i'm gonna spam photos of her (:

not all the pics are related to hawaii five o though(:

i dunno why, but she can protray the traits of any character and still exude the same level of charm, sexiness, and macho-ness (; IN SHORT, SHE IS JUST SO GORGEOUS AND CHARMING (:

but i just dun like the season finale of season 1 of hawaii five o >:( she is only doing wha she is supposed to do, even if its stealing of money. what do you expect her to do? jus sit around and watch her cousin (oso a police) die?? ITS SO UNFAIR!!!! :( now i'm waiting for season 2 ep 3 to find out how the story evolves. apparently, she got sacked as a police officer and she spends all her free time surfing. somehow, she felt that no one really understands her, and she ends up mixing around with an ex-cop, who is bad. I FEEL SO SAD FOR HER :((((( and she got investigated by her own teammates on one case where a volleyball coach was killed, and the investigation is gonna be bad for her, as in her secrets will be out(something like that) I CANNOT BEAR TO WATCH THIS EPISODE!!! I WANT HER BACK IN THE TEAM :((((((( i really hate to see kono being replaced by a homeland security agent, lisa westworth [i think thats her name, cos i didnt really notice her name, and oso the fact that she maybe replacing kono >:( ]

if she is not going back to the team, i swear i'm not gonna watch hawaii 5-0 anymore >:( i feel that the whole essence of this show lies in her: strength, pride, honour etc etc. i find no point in watching hawaii 5-0 if she is no longer part of the team. but this is just how i feel (: no offence meant (: I WANT KONO BACK!!

FUNSHION, PLEASE UPLOAD THE WHOLE OF SEASON 2 SOON :(((( i want to know what happen to Kono! The suspense is killing me!!! :(

okay, enough of this misery. Apparently, Grace Park got a degree in psychology in a university in Britain( i think, i'm not sure abt which uni though). AND SHE IS TALENTED. She knows korean, english, jap, cantonese (O.O), and currently, she is picking up spanish. like WOW, she's a language maniac (: she is a canadian too, even though she says she is always a korean at heart. AWWWWWW.. so pro-asian (:

no wonder her english is so fluent. she got the american accent, no kidding. its natural for her, not like some wierd ppl trying to act cool or what. and the accent suits her (:

she just exudes a certain charm that attracted me (: she looks good no matter what she wears, what type of character she is acting as. THAT IS WHY I'M MORE THAN WILLING TO SPEND MONEY BUYING HER SHOWS TO WATCH (: i think she is the only actress that i really dun mind doing this for(: SHE REALLY INSPIRES ME (:

so i am officially obssessed with her now (: <3<3<3

i think i am wierd, cos i always notice pretty girls first then handsome guys. sometines i only notice the girls :s is something wrong with me?

OH AND I THINK KONO AND STEVE LOOKS COMPATIBLE TOGETHER <3

sighhh *heart melts* <3 <3

sept holidays! (NOT)

2011-09-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

time flies, here we are, 3-4 weeks left to promos, 60+ days to A's. I dunno how confident i am for promos, but i'm gonna do my best for revisions, so SELF-DISCIPLINE STARTS NOW!
1) no sms(unless its impt)
2)no laptop, no internet (!)
i think i can survive all these for one week. stretching my limits(:
at least i'm not very addicted to internet like my brother. he does nth but stay in his room using his ipad for the whole day.. electricity bills are gonna increase exponentially this month.
on a side note, so many people's b'day coming up!! super no money now. need to think of cheaper ways to get presents. so i guess have to resort to handmade gifts. dun blame me if its not very well-done, my fingers are not very nimble :( but rest assured, the present will b presentable (: afterall, its the thought that counts :D
still thinking about the types of handmade gifts to give away, shall look up the internet once promos are over :x
Watched 'Bad Teacher' today, first M-18 movie!!! HAPPY MUCH :) but was too tired to truly enjoy the show :( almost fell asleep during the show, not the movie's fault!!! :( i think i'm gonna watch 'The Smurfs' next week. *SIGH* why does all the good movies have to be released near PROMOS??????
OKAY, 'The Smurfs' shall be the LAST movie i watch. i mean before promos la. I really cnt survive without watching movies. Feels very disconnected from the world HAHAHAS~! At least i still have something to look forward to aft A levels, movie outing with my, hy, wx!!!!! :DDDDDDD It will be a long wait, but i think i will use these time to.. er.. do something useful?
OH YA! Totally forget got survival camp for my cca!!! so its like a few weeks gone from my holidays :( oh well, better than staying at home and rotting for er... 2 months?
ALRIGHT, FOR NOW,PROMOS IS TOP PRIORITY. second is b'day presents for my sec sch buddies(:
er.. the rest has no ranking hahahs!
alright, shall go sleep now, tiring day tml.
SERIOUSLY, 4 DAYS FOR 2 TESTS? I DUN THINK ITS ENOUGH. shall just try my best(: *fingers crossed*

overboard

2011-08-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

sian man what the hell! argghhh!!! so freaking pissed off!!!!! what did i do to offend you??? jus tell me face to face la! you are making me feel like a stupid idiot leh!! treat you so nice some more.. somehow i just wish that this year will end faster, and i wont ever c u again. i know i will miss you, but after all u did, i'll be more than determined to forget you. hopefully, i think i will do that . whats the use of treating someone nice when they treat you like shit behind your back from the beginning. waste of time and effort. i should have known. arggghhh!!! sickening man, seriously, the way u treat ppl is just so... i shall not say anything here, but i guess its pretty obvious to me at least.

alright, midyears is over( long time ago), results are much more better than last year's(thankfully) next up,promos!
hope i have the energy to mug really really hard. after midyears, i totally had no more motivation and energy to carry on the pace of mugging before midyears. plus some other personal stuffs bugging me (-.-) , i think my tests results are slipping :( mr lim jus asked me why my test result is so bad this time round. mayb cos that topic(transformation) isn't really my forte, but i know the fall in my results is caused mostly by some other stuffs. the former is just an excuse that i found for myself. hopefully, i will b able to score well for msp test + departmental test(chem+math) in term 4 and sept hols respectively. only by doing this, will i b able to convince myself to concentrate only on promos and promos only.

you really know how to mask your dislike towards ppl. i bet that the smile you showed me, and the text you sent me were just part of the pretense. i know i shouldn't say this, but i wish all your friends will see your true colours. only den will you realise the importance of friends, they are not just your tool for company.

SOMEHOW, I JUST WISHED I DIDN'T MET YOU. EVER.
BUT THEN AGAIN, I WISH I CAN GET TO KNOW YOU FROM ANOTHER PERSPECTIVE, MAYBE THEN I CAN REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR PRESENCE.

MYE preparations!!

2011-06-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

time check: 09/06/2011 ,thurs, 9.17pm
status of mye preparation: 25%(=.=)
yea, reality is cruel.. besides, the 25% is not including h2 cse.. so, i think i can predict who i will be meeting for my ptm in july.. *gulps*
been trying to persuade my dad to sign a plan for me. but he still refuse.. so i have to work doubly hard for mye, only den mayb will he reward me during the roadshow in july ((:
seriously, this is all i have to motivate myself to revise for mye. which is nt enough, looking at my status of preparation of mye.
Some of my motivations are gone, i dun wish to talk abt them here. I am now currently searching for new motivations (:
YOU GUYS DON"T REALLY BOTHER ABT ME RIGHT??
studying tml, midnight movie with cousins, sleepover at cousin hse ((((: underwater world on sat, IT fair after that (mayb) .. these are my motivations for studying tml. sigh, it will all be gone again on sunday morning =.=
i need some long term motivations!!!
I SHOULD START STUDYING WHOLE HEARTEDLY, INSTEAD OF DREAMING ABOUT THINGS I WOULD NOT GET, AND THINKING ABOUT THINGS WHICH I KNOW WILL NEVER HAPPEN NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WISH FOR IT TO HAPPEN AT 11:11 !!!!!! THIS MEANS THAT YOU WILL BE OUT OF MY MIND BY NEXT WEEK, AND YOU WILL NEVER APPEAR IN MY MIND AGAIN (:

complicated :/

2011-04-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

i got a C for pw.. srsly, i dun think i can accept this :(
i hafnt told my mum yet, dun think i will be telling her that though..
sigh.. j1 life is better this year, i hope i can excel in all the tests(: 11S13 is awesome ; but i still miss all the fun i had in 10S12 :( i wont forget the frens i made in this class :)
i still dun understand why my hands feel cold, and my heart beat fast when i want to catch up with u on the way to sch.. i wanted to jus say hi, but my mouth jus refused to open. i remember how we used to be , we would jus talk crap casually, conversations with u were so much easier. i dun understand why i have the feeling that i am forgotten:((((( perhaps its jus me n my wild thoughts
and so i managed to catch up with you, but i jus overtook u wthout saying anything, nt even a hi, or a good morning. why is it so hard for me to talk to u nw. striking up a short conversation jus seem so hard nw :(
perhaps i should jus forget abt it, jus hang out with my classmates. stop thinking of the memories we shared. fullstop.
i prayed abt this every single day. in church, at home, during gb. hope my prayers would be answered:) when i received ur text msg, i was pleasantly suprised. at least u still cared. but nw i'm nt so sure anymore.
why do i keep having thiese thoughts abt you every single day??? i really miss you!!! but i dun think u do :(((

Coldplay - Yellow

2011-03-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

one of my fave songs(: can't seem to put up the lyrics :(

crazy day

2011-02-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

i did something really crazy today... twice. took bus to and fro cck. i'm seriously turning psycho.
i took bus unil my card became invalid :/ but prob is solved jus by topping up :)
i didnt noe why i took this particular bus and alighting at one particular stop except for my usual stop. feeling really wierd and out of place in this area of s'pore. cnt really explain what i was thinking then. hope this stops soon, coz if it doesnt, i have an uneasy feeling it will affect my academics!!
on the other hand, i kind of feel better aft doing this crazy thing twice. its hard to imagine not talking to someone whom u talked to almost everyday last time. taking long bus rides helps me to sort out my thoughts, that is why i prefer taking bus to taking train.
i tot of doing even crazier things today. but i stopped myself :) real glad i did! i can imagine the consequences if i really did that crazier thing!!
i must seriously find a healthier n normal way of venting my emotions:/ i feel like i am turning into someone unfamiliar to myself. this isnt wat i want to be. i want to be normal,happy and hardworking and... the list goes on. i nid to stop my unhealthy habits.
wish that ___________ will understand.. sighs.. i miss talking to you guys :(

relaxing mode(:

2011-02-26T16:53:00.000+08:00

watched grey's anatomy last night,and now i'm addicted to it!!!lots of life quotes!! everytime i come across one, i'll tweet it. so i spammed twitter abt 5 to 6 quotes last nite :X no wonder my fren tot i was seeking for attention!! hahahs!!!
i jus realised how fragile life is when i watch grey anatomy. one moment that person mayb talking happily to u, in the other, he may jus be another body on the autopsy :(
Life is full of choices, from small choices(like what to eat during recess), to big choices(like who to marry in the future LOL). wrong choices may result in undesirable consequences. i think i made a wrong decision, nut i shall see what the consequences are later in the week!!!

2011-02-24T19:32:00.001+08:00

i need someone, or something to make me SMILE

smile

2011-02-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

i cnt seem to smile these few days. i wonder why. my new class is great, and i still do keep in contact with my old class, but why am i still having this feeling of emptiness inside me?? i cnt figure it out.
my frens kept asking me if i'm okay. they are jus showing me concern, but i cnt help feel irritated. whenever they ask me if i'm alright,i will say i'm ok, jus a little tired. but deep down inside, i know i am definitely not okay, and there is something bothering me,keeping me from smiling.
I wish i know what's bothering me.i'm getting tired of telling lies to frens i care abt every single time they ask me if i'm ok.
I shall try smiling tml :DDDDDDDD:

thoughts :D

2011-01-27T19:54:00.000+08:00

hard to believe i'm in PJC for 1 yr!!!
When i saw the j1s today, i was reminded of myself, weexin, hanzalah, nithya and kristal. We were once like them, lost but eager to kick start a new year :))
even though i didnt make it to j2, the one yr in pjc has not gone to waste :) i made new frens, although there are some minor misunderstandings here and there. Besides, i get to know my old frens abit more. Coincidentally, i get to know some frens abit too well, and finally saw that they are more than wat they show, and the way they behave. Theres good and bad side though, so i guess its kinda balanced :DD
Something happened today that made me change my perspective of certain frens i've made last year. It wasnt anything bad,jus that i had a nasty shock when i realised that. I've been hit with this type of 'suprise' and shock quite a number of times in my life, but this time, the impact is far greater than those i've experienced before.
I cnt blame them for doing wat they did; aft all, i started it first, and they only do that out of concern, mayb?? i guess we must all learn to move on in life, no use dwelling on things that alr happened.
So, i'm looking forward to my new class in 2011!!! :DDD

Howie Day - Collide

2011-01-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

Howie Day - Collide
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

CIP at city square mall

2010-12-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

spent my whole day at city square mall volunteering for Metro SIF. Not a bad experience, but nt a totally wonderful experience either. Sets me wondering, do all ppl behave like the lady which scolded me in public even though its nt really my fault. Its my 1st time in Metro at city square; how the hell would i know all the layout?? Yet she took it for granted, seeing everyone wearing a tag n standing behind a counter, assuming that they are staff of Metro. The way she flagged me off like some irritating pests makes me pissed. OH, so its my fault that u cnt find ur KETTLE? U totally destroyed my image of you man. I should have ignored u when i saw u flagging me off. I should have minded my own business, which is to raise funds for needy children in Bandung, Indonesia.
I'm nt complaining, but don't u think u have gone too far. Imagine yourself in my shoes, how would u feel?? Can see that u take things around u for granted. Thinking that you are always right. So what if a customer is always right?? YOU are not my customer, by right i should have ignored u n carry on with wat i'm supposed to do. YOU don't appreciate my help, fine,BUT you don't have to SCOLD ME IN PUBLIC. You have no right to; my mum doesnt even do that, so what gives you the right to do so??
PISSED OFF TTM :@ Hope i wouldnt meet this type of customers when i work in the future, or i would die of anger within a week :/
F**K, why do i feel so useless now?????????

respect

2010-11-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

i dunno wats coming over me, but i seem to get pissed at watever things u do. is it my fault?? is my temper really that bad?? is my tolerance level reaaly that low that i feel like shouting at u whenever u did something wrong, be it major or minor??
To start it off,u r the youngest in the family, that doesnt mean that everyone would have to let u win in every single freaking thing. Even if we did that, we expect something from u, jus a simple 'thank-you' would suffice. Would it even hurt u to show some respect to ur elders?? U took it like it was for granted. Your attitude totally pissed me off. But wat can i say?? I have no authority to punish u. Your parents, especially your dad didnt cane u when u did something wrong, or jus simply being bratty n pampered. Do u know how he used to cane us for nt doing our homework when we were young. You must be real damn lucky that he didnt cane u.
All in all, Your ATTITUDE SUCKS TTM

Wedding Dinner

2010-11-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

jus back from wedding dinner, damn frigging tired :/ need to travel to some ulu place jus for it -.- oh well, here's a lesson for me: find a boyfriend with car, and you won't have any worries abt transportation :)
I did learn another lesson from the wedding dinner, not a gd lesson though.
I was enjoying the food and ambience etc etc... and soon, it was time to go home. My family was among the last few who left, and unfortunately, the unlucky ones to witness a ugly scene, one which i will never ever forget, sad to say.
The groom was drunk, apparently from all the toastings and stuffs like that, so i didnt know if i could blame him for happen. When i walked passed him, he was screaming at his 2nd uncle, asking him to explain his words clearly. The 2nd uncle was also drunk, and he looks VERY angry, wanting to pick up a fight with the groom. The groom's friends was trying to restrain him from starting a fight on his wedding day, and was telling him to cool down so that he won't scare the guests, especially the kids. The groom's mum almost fainted :/
The bride was standing right at the other end of the reception area, and was shouting at the groom, demanding him to keep quiet and stop making a fool out of himself on both of their wedding day. The bride was crying :(
That sparked off my thoughts, and i realise that even someone close to you(family, close friends,husbands, wifes.. etc etc) can ruin ur beautiful mood on a perfect day, or a day of great importance to you. Is it entirely the groom's fault that this incident happen? Can this incident be avoided??
The bride must be very sad right nw,i think. Hope she can forgive n forget, altough the most important day of her life is nw stained with some unhappy memories :( wish them luck in their future!! :D
Well, one thing for sure, i will remember that the groom actually existed( he's my relative) because of this incident :/
PS: FYI, this is my first time seeing the groom :/ i didnt know abt his existence until my family received the invitation, which is why i was very reluctant to attend this wedding dinner, besides the ulu place which was choosen for the venue of the wedding dinner.

John Mayer - Half Of My Heart

2010-11-19T21:09:00.001+08:00

John Mayer - Half Of My Heart
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

oh half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
with half of my heart

your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you [x3]
but I can't stop loving you with half of my...

half of my heart
half of my heart

half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do

half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything

half of my heart [x6]

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

2010-11-19T20:17:00.002+08:00

Nice song :D

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

Oh whoa
Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

[Chorus:]
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

2010-11-19T20:12:00.000+08:00

Urfgh.. wat type of feeling is this?? :/ would i ever be okay?? jus cnt find the right words to describe THIS :(
VEX TTM :@:@:@

The Story Of Us - Taylor Swift

2010-11-18T22:52:00.000+08:00

Taylor Swift - The Story Of Us
I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say they're the lucky ones.
I used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

Oh a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to fall-out.
Too many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I can't break through.

[CHORUS:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah.
I don't know what to say, it's a twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Next chapter

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
You're doing your best to avoid me.
I started to think one day I'd tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should've held me.

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

[CHORUS:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah.
I don't know what to say, it's a twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like the careless,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you say you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

[CHORUS:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah.
I don't know what to say, it's a twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now.
And we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah.
I don't know what to say, it's a twist of fate 'cause we're going down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

The end.

Randomness

2010-11-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

Every night before i slp, i think abt all the frens that God had given to me. And i thank Him for their existence :) He made me realise the importance of frens, and i will never ever forget all the things i did with them, be it silly, funny,right, wrong...
They stood by me through thick and thin, and somehow, we always knew what was on each others mind :)
SO... MY DEAR FRENS, I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU BEFORE I SLEEP!!!!
(just a random thought;blogging whatever that came to my mind:) )

Simple Plan

2010-11-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Save You
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know

I wish I could save you

Simple Plan - Save You

2010-11-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Save You
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know

I wish I could save you

Long Live - Taylor Swift [Full with Lyrics]

2010-11-16T18:00:00.001+08:00

Taylor Swift - Long Live
I said remember this moment, in the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds and stands went wild
We were the Kings and the Queens
And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew our lives
Would never be the same
You held your head like a hero
On a history book page
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age

Long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

I said remember this feeling
I passed the pictures around
Of all the years that we stood there
On the side-lines wishing for right now
We are the Kings and the Queens
You trade your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town
And the cynics were outraged
Screaming this is absurd
Cause for a moment a band of theives
In ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around
Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break or fall
Will you take a moment, promise me this
That you'll stand by my forever
But if god forbid fate should step in
And force us into a goodbye
If you have children some day
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name
Tell them how the crowds went wild
Tell them how our hope it shined

Long live the walls we crashed through
I had the time of my life with you
Long, long live the walls we crashed through
How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid
Singing, long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

long live

2010-11-16T17:50:00.001+08:00

wat a horrible night i've been thru. Filled with shame,blame, and other undescribable feelings.
After wat my mum say, i dun think i would have the courage to RETAIN. She kept putting me down, saying that i should stop studying( 'wasting money' , she calls it) ARGGGGGHHHHH..... so wat should i do?!?!?!?!? Should i go poly?? Or should i follow wat my mum say??
I WANNA STAY IN PJ!!! Oh god.... i miss 10S12 nw :( all my frens.. yuling, shikin, weexin, eunice ... :(
Thanks for being my fren, n always being there when i need help :D its been really great being frens with u all!!
To my pw grp members:
Pooja: you r an AWESOME leader!! Stay cool always!!
Rui yun: another AWESOME grp mate of mine, must come back n visit us :)
GuiXian: we've been thru alot together (as a pw grp) :) all the best in everything u do!!
Silvester: yo buddy!! hahhas c ya in Kairos 2011 :D
I will always remember the foursome times ( yuling, shikin, eunice n me!!) :DDDDDD
Nice song from taylor swift, really describe wat i wanna say n wat i am feeling now :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RI1Lscx5H7E

Taylor Swift - Long Live

I said remember this moment, in the back of my mind

The time we stood with our shaking hands

The crowds and stands went wild

We were the Kings and the Queens

And they read off our names

The night you danced like you knew our lives

Would never be the same

You held your head like a hero

On a history book page

It was the end of a decade

But the start of an age

Long live the walls we crashed through

How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you

I was screaming long live all the magic we made

And bring on all the pretenders

One day we will be remembered

I said remember this feeling

I passed the pictures around

Of all the years that we stood there

On the side-lines wishing for right now

We are the Kings and the Queens

You trade your baseball cap for a crown

When they gave us our trophies

And we held them up for our town

And the cynics were outraged

Screaming this is absurd

Cause for a moment a band of theives

In ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls we crashed through

How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you

I was screaming long live all the magic we made

And bring on all the pretenders

I'm not afraid

Long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I was screaming long live the look on your face

And bring on all the pretenders

One day we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around

Confetti falls to the ground

May these memories break or fall

Will you take a moment, promise me this

That you'll stand by my forever

But if god forbid fate should step in

And force us into a goodbye

If you have children some day

When they point to the pictures

Please tell them my name

Tell them how the crowds went wild

Tell them how our hope it shined

Long live the walls we crashed through

I had the time of my life with you

Long, long live the walls we crashed through

How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you

I was screaming long live all the magic we made

And bring on all the pretenders

I'm not afraid

Singing, long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you

I was screaming long live the look on your face

And bring on all the pretenders

One day we will be remembered

hectic; paranoid

2010-09-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

what have i gotten myself into???
independent study day wasnt a waste, but i did what was considered 'unneccesary' for tml lessons
Things left undone
Chem planning qns(2)
Econs revision package[ Case study on tourism]
Maths tutorial[9, 10, 11]
Clear chem tuition fee

Best of all, i dun even noe if i have anything that is nt included in the list above, but its due by this week.
FML, seriously, jus FML :(
plus, only one month left to PROMOS!!!
i am not even half prepared :(
I MUST NOT, AND WILL NOT FAIL PROMOS, LIKE HOW I FLUNK MY MID YEARS!!
I DUN WANNA RETAIN :((((((((((((((((((
sometimes i truly wonder, can God hear my prayers?? if he can, i bet he must be irritated by them heh.

when your life jus sucks :(

2010-08-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

MYE was terrible :( only managed to pass chi :(
Results for mye:
GP: S
Chinese: B
CSE: S
Maths: U
Chemistry: U
Econs: U
How bad can my results get?? Haiis, gotta buck up if i wanna get promoted :( means no laptop unless neccessary, no television :(((( back to mugging time :(
Have u ever been really pissed off at someone suddenly??? Its like all of a sudden, u jus hate watever he/she do. This type of feeling really sucks to the max D: especially when he/she was ur best fren D:
Why do ppl have to change?? How i miss the good old times D: sighhhhhhhh :(
I want to get rid of this feeling. Its distracting me from my studies :( i need to clear my mind from non- academic stuffs.
GOD, PLEASE HELP ME!! I NEED DETERMINANCE NOW!!

If you could wish for something and get it right now, what would u wish for?

2010-07-24T20:15:00.001+08:00

someone whom i want to talk to will sms me :)

Ask me anything

What did you dream about last night?

2010-07-24T20:13:00.003+08:00

escaping from an unknown factory :/

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What are you most excited about right now?

2010-07-24T20:13:00.001+08:00

mugging and doing well for promos :)

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Risky Business

2010-06-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

The Cab - Risky Business

Hide the key
Cause I'm coming over
To settle the score, whoa
Don't forget how well I know you
Stop asking, keep dancing.

You don't stand a chance, girl
You'll fall apart, talking with your hands, girl
You'll have to start over, over again

Baby, I'll come up and call you out
Maybe, next time you should turn around
Over, over again

Put put put your heart where your mouth is
Put put put your heart where your mouth is now.

Hide the key
Cause I'm coming over
To settle the score, whoa
Stop asking, keep dancing.

You think that I'm blind, girl
My eyes are always floating in your mind, girl
You'll have to start over, over again.

Maybe, I'm the one that plays the game
Maybe, I dare to make the scene the same
Over, over again.

Baby you should
Put put put your heart where your mouth is
Put put put your heart where your mouth is now

Hide the key
Cause I'm coming over
To settle the score, whoa
Don't forget how well I know you
I'll take take, take take you down.

Stop asking, keep dancing

I'm talking about change
You really wanna see the rain
But if you wanna see me
Then you need to settle down

Hide the key
Cause I'm coming over
To settle the score, whoa
Don't forget how well I know you
I'll take take
I'll take take you down

Take My Hands

2010-06-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

The Cab - Take My Hand

Calm your nerves now
And don't worry, just breathe
Are you sure now?
Don't bother packing
Let's just leave

(All of them) Said they wanted change
I hope that you remain the same
To show that this is not a game
Let's end this tragedy today

Now, take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

Lay down with me
And let me hold you, baby, just breathe
This is ending
We will get through eventually

(All of them) Said they wanted change
I hope that you remain the same
To show that this is not a game
Let's end this tragedy today

Now, take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

Now, take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

We won't be a part of
We won't be a part of that
We won't be a part of
We won't, we won't

Take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

Now, take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

Take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that I know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over now

We won't be a part of
We won't be a part of that
We won't be a part of
We won't, we won't

wats ur most embarassing moment in life so far?

2010-06-05T16:22:00.001+08:00

recognising strangers as my fren n seeing the wierd look on that strangers face :/

Ask me anything

wat was your first impression of dilen?

2010-06-05T16:16:00.001+08:00

quiet n nerdy guy :)

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What is your first impression of Hui Min?

2010-06-05T16:14:00.001+08:00

very fierce

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If you only have one hour left to live, what are the three things you will do?

2010-06-05T16:12:00.001+08:00

eat whatever i want,play like hell an dfinally sleep until i die :)

Ask me anything

MYE!!

2010-05-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

long time since i last blogged. its almost end of may! blink of an eye, and 4 months jus passed... and mye gp is tml! seriously nt prepared for it, last min studying nw. one moment i see myself at orientation, enjoying de programmes lined up for us, de next i am struggling to memorise some points for my gp paper tml. In another blink of an eye, i would be sitting for my promos!! 2010 is a really fast year, time zoomed passed me without me knowing ;( i dun wanna retain D: i must pass tml paper by hook or by crook :D
june holidays are coming!!!! but i am nt thrilled at all :( all i see is a holiday filled with studying, mugging and memorising for de rest of the papers which is aft the holidays :( my only source of entertainment??? jogging 8 rounds in the park without stopping :D
sheesh, i am such a noob -.-but seriously, time is passing real fast!!! 5 months in PJC was filled with ups n downs, new frens were made, frenships between old frens deepen (mayb??? i am having my doubts though)
its always good to make new frens, frens i feel comfortable with, for u may nt know when ur best fren may become someone else's best fren :) moreover, it will be a good experience to make new frens, to widen ur social circle, instead of jus cooping urself up in ur own world with a few frens :)
Sigh.. ppl do really change fast. from frens who talked non-stop during first few days of sch, to strangers who sit beside one another in class but speak less than 10 sentences to one another per day.(except when one needed the help of another).
when i see this, i ask myself, " is this frenship worth treasuring now? If it is,wat reason should i give myself so that i will be able to continue treasuring this frenship?" i havent found the answer yet. i really hope that god will tell me wat to do :D
alright, back to gp notes!! jiayou everyone in 10S12 :D

pissed off -.-

2010-04-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

it seems that i am always having troubles in friendships no matter where i go. Haiis.... nowadays i am easily pissed off by simple, small things. Am i changing for the worse? Or am i jus VERY sensitive to certain things certain ppl say?
homework is piling, stress is mounting, and unfortunately, friendship problems are mounting exponentially too. sigh.... who wants to counsel me? I desperately need someone i can trust to lend their ears to me XD
fortunately, there are some frens whom i know i can joke around with comfortably, and i feel safe talking to them abt my problems. I dun like mixing with ppl who makes me feel uncomfortable with watever i do. Its like holding your breath underwater. If i feel that way, i rather drown to death :) i dun think that i should give a damn abt all these things nw, but i cnt stop thinking abt it. i keep on reminding myself abt this, till i feel very down.
i feel like crying sometimes but i hold back my tears. i must be strong!!!! hahahas :)
JIAYOUS JEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sighs... back to econs assignments nw :) I LOVE ECONS!!!!

Continued

2010-04-01T15:47:00.000+08:00

8) i run 6 rounds every single session of PE :(
9)i forgot to do chinese homework for once in my 11 years :(
10) i am very broke nw :(
hahas
XD

Top ten reasons why i want to kill myself XD

2010-03-31T18:12:00.000+08:00

1) There are ppl everyday that will try to mess up my hair
2) There are crazy ppl around me in sch n in class
3) PW is a subject that i cnt drop -.-
4) Every week got one suprise test from random subjects
5) CCA (china desk) is tedious
6) internet connection in sch lib sucks
7) i cnt enjoy air con n internet at the same time but my fren can :(

shall continue at home hahas XD

March holidays :D

2010-03-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

wow, time really flies! Its de 2nd day of de march holidays :D
But sadly, no holidays for me :( i got econs lecture today plus hsk training D: reached sch at 8am, n only reach home at 6.30pm D: TIRED!!!
Tml there's chem lecture, but luckily its at 11.30am, so can get more slp. S12 was seated right at de front, so no chance to slp D: sad :( tml lecture on atomic structure(continued) i dun even understand de beginning part. I think i will fail chem badly during promos :( its so damn difficult, with the s orbitals, p orbitals, d orbitals n de last one which i forgot :X i shall try my best to understand tml's lecture, no matter how hard it is. because... I LOVE CHEM!!!!
hahas anyway, i found out that an interest in a subject can really push u to do your best in dat particular subject :) [which kind of explains y i keep on flunking my pure physics in sec 3 n 4 :X its a miracle i managed to get a b3 for physics in o's!]
So i should tell myself that... I LOVE CHEM N ECONS!!!!!!!! :):):):):)
P.S dun laugh, Shikin

PJC

2010-02-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

Wow,its a long time since i blogged hahas. Been real busy with jc homework. Oh ya btw, i got posted to pioneer jc hahas so morning had to wake up early -.- had orientation that is 2 weeks plus 2 days long with an overnight camp on 10 n 11 feb.
My subject combi is : h2 maths, chem n china studies in english h1: GP, PW, econs, mother tongue. Its quite an unique combination out of 28 ppl in class, only one girl had the same combi as me :) GP lecture was hectic :( didnt manage to copy down all the notes. Maths lectures are worse, our class always get scolded as we are always late :( i think the lacturer had a bad impression on our class :( chem was great :D my civics tutor is my chem teacher :) i was suprised at the speed of chem lecture; a few months worth of topic taught in sec 3 can be covered in 90 mins O.o so i think u can already imagine the speed of lectures n jc life :/
Had a college road run last fri, but it was considered a roadwalk for me o.O i had muscle ache due to skipping of stretching exercises before trial run during pe lesson on thurs, which is one day before the real college roadrun. Although not much ppl from my hse, POLO, won places in 1st top 20 runners, we are still the overall champion for the roadrun :):):) POLO ROCKS!!!
During orientation, i met a real inspiring ogl :D she is vice cap of voleyball girls:D she was the the ogl of mg 30(my mg) n she tried real hard to break the ice between us as we are all from different sec schs. Really appreciate her effort :) Although she did nt take my class(10S12) for orientation, she belonged to my hse too(TROY:D) and we had alot of fun dancing as a whole clan on finale night :D
I will not forget her as long as i am still in pjc.(though i think i will not forget her for my whole life:D)

formspring.me

2010-01-31T18:30:00.003+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/jeanhew93

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2010-01-31T18:30:00.001+08:00

What's your biggest phobia?

ermmmmm.. maybe being left alone in a strange place?

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formspring.me

2010-01-31T18:29:00.001+08:00

If you could have been the author of any book, what would it have been?

Nah i am too lazy to write a compo,let alone a book!!

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Wierd dream

2010-01-16T12:27:00.000+08:00

Had a real freaky dream last night. Here it goes:

I was at home, chewing on something(can't really remember) when suddenly, my 3 front teeth just came out!! But it didn't drop separately, it came out 3 at once in a straight line!! And it did'nt drop completely, it just dangle from the gum.I immediately push it back into the gum(don't know why i did that) and carried on chewing. however the same thing happen again and i had no choice but to tell my mother.

my mother was calm even when she saw my front teeth dangling(as if it happened all the time -.-). she just pick up the phone and dialled a number. After speaking for a few minutes, she told me to follow her out.

Then, i found myself at a hospital and all my relatives are there also. They were mumuring something abt my brother going for a surgery to stick his front teeth back on. i then realized that they got the wrong information; I was the one going for surgery to put my dangling front teeth back on!! Then a nurse told me to wait inside the operation theatre for the surgeon to get ready for the operation. I was like, "Don't i have to change into something more appropriate for operation? Something like a hospital gown?" But the nurse just stare blankly at me. So i gave up and followed her instructions.

The operating theatre consist of only a table n a recliner chair(normally found at the dentist's room). The surgeon was already waiting for me so i quickly lied down on the recliner chair while he/she adjusted it to a suitable height and position. Then the surgeon asked, 'Do you want a general anaesthetic which makes you sleep during the operation and you will not feel any pain, or...' I did'nt wait for him/her to finish, i just shouted that i wanted a general anaesthetic.(Afterall, who wants to be awake to see yourself being operated on?) He/she injected the anaesthetic and i fell asleep immediately.

When i woke up(from the anaesthetic), i found myself lying in bed at home. I immediately touched my front teeth and found that the 3 dangling front teeth is back in place(which means that the operation is a successful one). I was wondering how the surgeon did it when my mother came in and asked if i had paid for the surgery. I shook my head and said that i do not have that much money with me (Operations are expensive these days).

What my mother told me next totally shocked me. She said that the operation cost only 19 dollars!!(wtf?!?!) Then she toled me to follow her to find that surgeon. I got another shock when i saw who the surgeon was. It was my cousin!!(For your info, she is a vet, not a surgeon, in real life)-.- .

This made me wonder if my cousin just glued my 3 dangling front teeth back on using superglue during the surgery...

A day when time passed unexceptionally slow

2010-01-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

Went to meet Hui min at jp today den accompanied her to collect her phone which she sent for repair. Met quite alot of Shuqun students who are doing their flag day(lucky i dunno any of them except damaris, so i had no choice but to donate some money to her) Next, we went to bugis street, iluma n imm before we decided to take 99 home.

Reached home then used com for a while. Read abt a japan teenage girl being kidnapped n was tortured until she died 44 days later. However all 4 of her torturers were nt given their well-deserved punishment n instead, they got away scot-free. Although i felt incensed aft reading the article, i know that even though her torturers is nt punished by law, they would (probably) feel guilt-stricken for taking away the life of a young n innocent teenage girl (who is only 16 when she died) . The most ridiculous thing was that they didnt even know her at all, they were strangers.

Went to buy dinner after that and i felt afraid when i heard shuffling footsteps behind me. I dun believe it, but i am actually "influenced" by the article i read!!(even though it happened a few decades ago)

Talk abt being afraid of being kidnapped. I dun think that will happen to me though.

Orchard road!!

2010-01-06T13:14:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to meet ming yun, huai yue n wee xin at somerset mrt station at 11am. But at 10.30am, while i was at Jurong East bus interchange, wee xin sms-ed me to tell me huai yue jus woke up -.- so i took my own sweet time to get to Somerset to meet ming yun first by taking the red line hahas. The journey took 54 mins. Wee xin n huai yue took bus to Orchard Cathay Cineleisure. Amazingly, me n ming yun reached cineleisure at the same time as them. We went to box office j bought tickets for 'Alvin n the chipmunks 2'.

Overall, the movie is hilarious. I like Theodore as he is SUPER cute!! His fear of eagle was also funny. After the movie, we decided to eat at centrepoint as i could clearly hear ming yun's stomach growling during the movie! After lunch, we went walk walk at Taka first as wee xin need to pass something to siu wai. Aft that went to Paragon in search of baby toys( wee xin needed it for a birthday present). We couldn't find any so we decided to go home.

On our way to the mrt station, we passed by Lucky Plaza, more accurately, a shop called 'The Condom Shop' (!!!!!) Something hilarious happened there.

Huai Yue: Eh, wee xin, u got work here before right?
Wee Xin: NO!!!!! I never work at THIS shop before!!!(pointing to The Condom Shop)
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS(laugh really hard)
Ming yun: Huh? What happened?
Me:-__________-
Huai Yue: I mean this shopping centre la, not THAT shop. Crazy wan sial, u all.

Aft awhile, we decided to stop for a ice cream. We finished it within 10 mins n walked to the mrt station. Our train arrived 1st, so we bid farewell to ming yun n continued on our way home. Wee xin n huai yue went westmall while i decided to go home.

BBQ nite!!!

2009-12-31T11:51:00.000+08:00

Left hse yesterday at 2.30pm to meet ai xia, hui min n vivian at jp bus interchange. We then took bus 30 to west coast and the bbq person kept on calling me to find out where i am -.- finally, he decided to jus leave our food at the pit n leave first. We had no choice but to walk faster to the pit.

Aft reaching the pit n checking the food, we decided to start the fire. Then we discovered we don't have any matchstick or lighter!! So vivian n hui min have to walk over to 7-11 which is 1 underpass plus 2 traffic light away from our pit. Then me n ai xia discovered we don't have garbage bag so. So called hui min n vivian to find out where they are. Lucky they jus reach 7-11 :) so ask them buy garbage bag hahas.

When they came back, we tried to start the fire but to no avail. The charcoal that the bbq company gave could nt be used -.- no matter how hard we tried, we still could nt start the fire. Then it started to rain-.- we only have one umbrella among the four of us.

Ai xia n i decided to jus go 7-11 buy another packet of charcoal aft failed attempts of starting the fire. We bought some tongs oso, since the bbq company only provided us with 2, which means that only one persn can bbq the food at one time :/

Finally at 7 plus, we managed to start the fire. By then, mei yi, jasmine, yoke ting and abigail had arrived. We started to bbq our food. Vivian had to leave at 7.15pm as she had to be home by 8.30pm :( we only started bbq the food so she only ate one plate of noodles n 3 sausages :(

After she left, we continued bbq-ing te rest of the food. The satay and otah was DELICIOUS!!!!! :) The fire kept dying on us-.- so we had to keep on fanning the fire to prevent it from dying. Everyone took turns fanning until our arms ache :(

We are abt to pack up when ppl from pit 6 and 9 came to borrow our charcoal as their fire could not be started as well. We decided to let ppl from pit 6 n 9 use our pit as our charcoal is still hot. Then mei yi, yoke ting and jasmine went over to pit 9 to help them set up the fire. Then we started cleaning up the pit. We even washed the tables using the ice provided by the bbq company!!

Since it was already 10.45pm, me and abigail decided to cab home as we live near each other. We managed to hail a cab faster than hui min n ai xia even though we left later than them o.O. the taxi driver kept talking to us so he didn't have his full attention on the road. So we swerved here n there and i almost knock my head against the seat infront of me -.- After that, the driver stopped talking to us(thankfully) and i managed to reach home safely in one piece.(thank god)

I washed up and started reading a book 'Sunday at Tiffany's' It's a very interesting book, talking abt the relationship between Jane n her imaginary friend, Micheal. But i decided to slp after reading a few chapters as my eyelids had great difficulty staying open.

Overall, I had great fun at the bbq!! I wanna thank everyone who is at the bbq :) But i really hope that more ppl could join us yesterday night :(

Two days at once

2009-12-28T10:24:00.000+08:00

Was watching police and thief on sat night when the last scene shows two children (acting as mark lee's daughter and son) hugging their maid like they would hug their own parents.

Me(in chinese): Wah, see, children nowadays closer to maid than their own mum.
Mum(in chinese): Ya lor. You also never hug me like that before.

I was shocked when i heard that. Is that really true? Now thinking back, i realised indeed, from young till now, i had never really hugged my mum. But i tried to defend myself.

Me(in chinese): Aiya, if i really hug you like that< you confirm will ask if i got fever or not.
Mum(in chinese): No, I would think that you kena possessed or shou dao hen da de da ji.
Me: -____________-

Yesterday went to church in the morning, was half conscious during sermon also, but at least i managed to finish reading half of a mystery storybook during sermon. After service went IMM to meet my aunt for a Pepperlunch treat. Saw aik peng working there but he didnt see me lols. Next, went walk walk at furniture store at #rd storey then went Daiso. Had to leave halfway as i would be meeting hui min n vivian at jp. The new boon lay bus interchange was HUGE. Met huimin n her sis then went to Fairprice Xtra buy choc den went to meet vivian at food court. Saw joshua with her but he disappeared aft that. We then make our way to huimin hse wach alvin n the chipmunks 1 followed by Devil Beside You 1.Hui min kept saying mike very handsome(as usual). Then i left with vivian and bought dinner home.

BBQ NOT CANCELLED!!!!

2009-12-25T15:49:00.000+08:00

As the title suggests, the bbq on 30th wont be cancelled haha. So c ya gals there :)

Bearing Witness To The Light

2009-12-25T14:43:00.000+08:00

Went to attend church service this morning. The church was DAMN crowded that extra chairs have to be used to ensure that everyone has a place to sit. My mum woke me up at 6.30am when the service starts at 9am so that we would have a place to sit -.- i was half conscious during the sermon but something the speaker said caught my ears. He said," Some of us here are christians for a long time, maybe even up to 40 or 50 years. But have you ever asked yourself, exactly how many years have you been bearing witness to the light? Can ppl around us see the light of Christ shining through us?'

This question struck me deeply, as I was born into a christian family, and had been attending church ever since I started walking. Now thinking back, i saw how easy it was for me to tell ppl that I am a christian, but find it hard to act out what I mean. Maybe I should do some reflection tonight.

I decided to cancel the bbq I planned on the 30th as very few ppl would b attending it. So very sry gals, especially those who would be going.

Last but not least, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Spring cleaning on Christmas Eve!!

2009-12-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10 plus today, ate breakfast then started cleaning my aunt's house. First, my aunt and I clean up her room. At 3 plus have instant noodle as lunch. 4pm started cleaning kitchen until 7 plus then ate dinner. After that went home and bathe. Now damn tired due to climbing up and down the ladder during cleaning. Tomorrow going church for Christmas service so gonna slp early tonight. Bye ppl, will update soon :)

new blogger!!

2009-12-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

hello everyone. haha was feeling kinda bored of life so i decided to start a new blog
lols! Anyway i hope that by creating a blog, i can express myself freely n in a diff way than before. :)

okays, thats all for my first post. Will be updating soon. :)