I swear, I really dislike my family, except my mum. Wanna eat lunch don't want go out and buy it themselves, purposely ask me go out buy. They are too reluctant to lift their asses off the couch, as well as to miss some scenes of the movie they are watching. Wth, i'm halfway through my revision for econs paper tmr sial, not playing eh. Should have just went to church with my mum this morning )):

Oh well, can only blame it on myself. But I really didn't have any regrets helping out at CCC yesterday!!! It was an eyeopener for me, getting to experience what it was like to be a timer for the cheer competition. Of course, I get to see alot of performances from various gb company. I admire their perseverance and strength, but I must still say, some companies deserve better results. Shall not mention any names here heh!! As if she would be reading my blog lol.

All in all, it was a great experience for me. This may be the last time i'm volunteering at this type of large events. If my academic results permit, I will definitely jump at any chances for me to volunteer, no matter how minor the position is ((:

Gtg!!! Need to buy lunch for my lazy dad and bro and myself, after that, back to the books!!! May god bless my short studying time today, and make it as productive as possible. AMEN. (((:

Sian it really sucks when I cannot do anything to help my close ones. SUCKS BIG TIME. This feeling of helplessness really fucked upy emotions. I just don't know what to say to make everyone feel better. My jokes are not even as funny as it used to be. SUCH A LOSER. No mood for anything now. Hope that this feeling end soon. Kthxbye

Got a feeling that I will fail badly for both test tml. I need to buck up. But I need my sleep badly )): dilemma max :/

On a brighter note, I have the weekends free for me, myself and I ((: before that, I still have to go through CSE case study test. TSK. Thinking about all these tests makes me wanna commit suicide~ no time to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been spending time with my besties, and everytime we part ways, I immediately miss them )): and I cnt wait for A lvls to end so I can party with them w/o any worries ((((((: if only I can fast forward time to the last day of A lvls~~~

Continue dreaming, jean.

Wed: econs quiz

Thurs: maths test plus gp essay test

Fri: chem quiz plus cse case study test.

How screwed am i? Jus take a look at all the tests I have within a week. SIGH. I WANT MY LIFE BACK )):

What a hectic term, jc2 life is really tough. So far so good, been getting decent grades for tests (: but i'm still scared for common test :/ its less than a month to common test. Very scared that I will under perform. I feel that I have become more complacent aft my promos. What if I cnt cope with my studies, and end up failing mid years??

YAY!!! promos finally over!! feel as if a load taken off my shoulders (: i tried my best this time round, so even if i didnt make it to jc2, i won't feel guilty or regretful (:


now its time to spam some Hawaii Five O!!! jus short of a few episodes, and i officially finish season one. watched the first few episodes yesterday, and i was like WOW!!! the dvd is always inside my tv drawer, and i didnt know why i hadn't take it out to watch :/

and now, i'm obsessed with GRACE PARK!!! i know it sounds abit wrong, but she is damn AWESOME in this show!!!! (:  her character, kono, is damn pretty and well, in short, i jus wanna be like her in the future (:



and can u believe it? she's 37 this year o.o i thought she was only 20++ when i first saw her, and she is TALL (: i bet her kids will look as awesome as her (if she decides to have one) and ya, she's married(: she also acted in Battlestar Galatica, The Border, The Cleaner. I'm so gonna download all the show she acted in before, and spend my holidays watching them (; but i cnt seem to find The Cleaner cos its cancelled and only available in DVD :( means i need to save up for it :( and  since she acted in both seasons, i nid to save up about $100++? not to forget, The Border is oso only available on DVD (i think, since i cnt find it on funshion) , and she acted in 2 seasons, so its another $100++ gone T.T .Bear with me, cos i'm gonna spam photos of her (:












 not all the pics are related to hawaii five o though(:

i dunno why, but she can protray the  traits of any character and still exude the same level of charm, sexiness, and macho-ness (; IN SHORT, SHE IS JUST SO GORGEOUS AND CHARMING (:

but i just dun like the season finale of season 1 of hawaii five o >:( she is only doing wha she is supposed to do, even if its stealing of money. what do you expect her to do? jus sit around and watch her cousin (oso a police) die?? ITS SO UNFAIR!!!! :( now i'm waiting for season 2 ep 3 to find out how the story evolves. apparently, she got sacked as a police officer and she spends all her free time surfing. somehow, she felt that no one really understands her, and she ends up mixing around with an ex-cop, who is bad. I FEEL SO SAD FOR HER :((((( and she got investigated by her own teammates on one case where a volleyball coach was killed, and the investigation is gonna be bad for her, as in her secrets will be out(something like that) I CANNOT BEAR TO WATCH THIS EPISODE!!! I WANT HER BACK IN THE TEAM :((((((( i really hate to see kono being replaced by a homeland security agent, lisa westworth [i think thats her name, cos i didnt really notice her name, and oso the fact that she maybe replacing kono >:( ]

if she is not going back to the team, i swear i'm not gonna watch hawaii 5-0 anymore >:(  i feel that the whole essence of this show lies in her: strength, pride, honour etc etc. i find no point in watching hawaii 5-0 if she is no longer part of the team. but this is just how i feel (: no offence meant (: I WANT KONO BACK!!

FUNSHION, PLEASE UPLOAD THE WHOLE OF SEASON 2 SOON :(((( i want to know what happen to Kono! The suspense is killing me!!! :(


okay, enough of this misery. Apparently, Grace Park got a degree in psychology in a university in Britain( i think, i'm not sure abt which uni though). AND SHE IS TALENTED. She knows korean, english, jap, cantonese (O.O), and currently, she is picking up spanish. like WOW, she's a language maniac (: she is a canadian too, even though she says she is always a korean at heart. AWWWWWW.. so pro-asian (:

no wonder her english is so fluent. she got the american accent, no kidding. its natural for her, not like some wierd ppl trying to act cool or what. and the accent suits her (:

she just exudes a certain charm that attracted me (: she looks good no matter what she wears, what type of character she is acting as. THAT IS WHY I'M MORE THAN WILLING TO SPEND MONEY BUYING HER SHOWS TO WATCH (: i think she is the only actress that i really dun mind doing this for(: SHE REALLY INSPIRES ME (:


so i am officially obssessed with her now (:    <3<3<3



















i think i am wierd, cos i always notice pretty girls first then handsome guys. sometines i only notice the girls :s is something wrong with me?

OH AND I THINK KONO AND STEVE LOOKS COMPATIBLE TOGETHER <3

sighhh *heart melts* <3 <3

Labels: grace park (:

time flies, here we are, 3-4 weeks left to promos, 60+ days to A's. I dunno how confident i am for promos, but i'm gonna do my best for revisions, so SELF-DISCIPLINE STARTS NOW!
1) no sms(unless its impt)
2)no laptop, no internet (!)
i think i can survive all these for one week. stretching my limits(:
at least i'm not very addicted to internet like my brother. he does nth but stay in his room using his ipad for the whole day.. electricity bills are gonna increase exponentially this month.
on a side note, so many people's b'day coming up!! super no money now. need to think of cheaper ways to get presents. so i guess have to resort to handmade gifts. dun blame me if its not very well-done, my fingers are not very nimble :( but rest assured, the present will b presentable (: afterall, its the thought that counts :D
still thinking about the types of handmade gifts to give away, shall look up the internet once promos are over :x
Watched 'Bad Teacher' today, first M-18 movie!!! HAPPY MUCH :) but was too tired to truly enjoy the show :( almost fell asleep during the show, not the movie's fault!!! :( i think i'm gonna watch 'The Smurfs' next week. *SIGH* why does all the good movies have to be released near PROMOS?????? 
OKAY, 'The Smurfs' shall be the LAST movie i watch. i mean before promos la. I really cnt survive without watching movies. Feels very disconnected from the world HAHAHAS~! At least i still have something to look forward to aft A levels, movie outing with my, hy, wx!!!!! :DDDDDDD It will be a long wait, but i think i will use these time to.. er.. do something useful?
OH YA! Totally forget got survival camp for my cca!!! so its like a few weeks gone from my holidays :( oh well, better than staying at home and rotting for er... 2 months?
ALRIGHT, FOR NOW,PROMOS IS TOP PRIORITY. second is b'day presents for my sec sch buddies(:
er.. the rest has no ranking hahahs!
alright, shall go sleep now, tiring day tml.
SERIOUSLY, 4 DAYS FOR 2 TESTS? I DUN THINK ITS ENOUGH. shall just try my best(: *fingers crossed*